In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful



23 December 2016

All the time.

You've been good, busier than ever.

I miss how happy I was before. How energetic I was during those time where I talk a lot with them guys. How accepting I was after being rejected for a love that grows. It was bright that day, like nothing was going to let me down. And having my beloved friend who stand by my side and laugh and get annoyed with me together. No matter what bother us.

I really miss that. 

It's not something that you can easily turn back your time. And it was not like before. Everyday is not like before. Realizing that two guys were just sitting there and don't turn back their face anymore. And another him was seeing something that was beautiful for himself. And she who I cannot even see her vividly to talk on a new day.

I was crying inside, and I am no longer a happiest girl anymore. Maybe, one day, I will accept this and be happy again. 


16 December 2016

End

"Where should I start?

Oh yes, instagram first. It has been a few days I was offline."

I was waiting for the picture to load one by one. And then, one picture made me stunned for a moment of silence. Deep silence in the midnight.

I don't even know how to describe it. I was totally feeling sucked. Then I locked my phone and closed my eyes while covering my body with my warmest blanket.

It was calm, then I slowly erased him from my wonderwall.



13 December 2016

Exhausting days has start

I was really lazyyy, my sem break has ended. Now, back to my routine, I have to wake up early go bath and study and went back again around 4 or 5 pm.

It's tiring but I love to study somehow because I'm a curious person.

And I need to finish my assignment lab report and so on (so many to list)




06 December 2016

I can see from your eyes


How pitiful was it to keep demanding for something that you know you will never own.

I was afraid to face this reality although I have gone through much

I have like someone (not one but so many) and I've never get even one of them. Come on, please laugh at me

My heart was describe like "It's rotten man. You should free it." But free is what you can't even control. You keep going everywhere you want because you want to feel how was it being in another place. That's how I describe my heart.

Sometimes, love it's not what I seek for. I am a normal person that always feel that I need attention and people to think about how I feel. How pathetic I was.

I am grateful somehow to be me, because at a point even I was hurt. I was scared, people always take me as a good girl. Then, I realize I only know how to be a good girl and I can only be a victim. Always.

01 December 2016

What is inside our feelings?

Damasio: In everyday language we often use the terms interchangeably. This shows how closely connected emotions are with feelings. But for neuroscience, emotions are more or less the complex reactions the body has to certain stimuli. When we are afraid of something, our hearts begin to race, our mouths become dry, our skin turns pale and our muscles contract. This emotional reaction occurs automatically and unconsciously. Feelings occur after we become aware in our brain of such physical changes; only then do we experience the feeling of fear.

But previous studies have found marked changes in bodily sensations in mood disorders, Nummenmaa says. "For instance, with depression sometimes people have pain in their chest."


And there's even some evidence that when you change your own body language — like your posture or stance — you can alter your mind.


To be honest, I was confused with my own self. I don't even know what I'm feeling right now, later and so on. And I'm a bit worried because i had a bit pain in right side of my chest(i-think-i-had-indigestion).

So, I will start with anger first, the most hard feeling to deal with. Anger is something that out of our control. It can be really dangerous especially for patient people. They might kill you. LOL kidding. Beware of this feeling. I'm the type of anger that will push everything by my hands and don't even care it will be broke or what.

Sometimes, I just shut my mouth because any curse can be released from my mouth.

Sadness is the inside pain that you have to endure. Feeling like your heart was throbbed without anyone notice. How do I handle sadness?
Well said, I choose to forget and appreciating what I have now. It's not like you forget everything, it was about the willingness.

I



"I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh, but I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry."

24 November 2016

Time


Time flies so fast, 
When you realize you've got so many memories that are not to be forgotten
That you need to hold
And when it is the time to say goodbye 
The birds chirping like it's the time 



19 November 2016

Burn

It has been a long time//


I took a deep breath. My mood was terribly lost somewhere because I can't even draw a fake smile on my face. I was barely nothing to him..

The lesson will start by 5 minutes on, yet he still didn't came. The tutor came in and start teaching. He appeared suddenly as soon as 10 minutes of lesson passed by. There was no any remorse drawn on his face. The class ended and I just went out without looking at him not like usual.

He called my name a few times. I pretend as a deaf girl and keep walking without looking back. Then, someone stabbed my hand from behind. It's him.

"Um, no actually I have a favor. Can you please sent me the assignment you have did. I know you must have finished it already. So, how about you send me, because the final date was tomorrow.  And I don't even start anything yet. Don't worry I will not copy yours. I will change a little, but please I need the copy of yours as soon as possible."

My mouth was muttered, it's like something was burning and keep burning.

My reaction driving him nuts. "Hey, do you hear me actually or you don't want to help me?"

Pap! A sudden slap was on his face. My hand did that without my consciousness. I ran away.

Then, I bumped into Brenda and we seat in one cafe. She forced me to say everything that in my mind because on these few days, I don't smile a lot like before. She said I look empty.

I explained to her, and before I can finish a sentence, my tear drops. I was kinda horrible that time.

18 November 2016

Break

Let me describe this//

I wake up in the morning pushing my blanket out and look at the phone. It was 6.47 o'clock. One sem officially end. The thing that I have been waiting all along this hectic time in matriculation. It's not hectic but also horrible. 

But, I look for her and she's not on her bed. I stand up and wearing my 'tudung' to go back to my room. She's actually sleeping beside my friend. At that moment I can feel that she is really leaving us. Not by weeks or days anymore. She's leaving. 

We had some breakfast, and just act like nothing is happened. Then we all go back to our room for packing up. 

04 November 2016

How I wish I can forget you. Hahahaha then, please get me a man

17 September 2016

September?

Assalamualaikum w.b.t 

SO HELLOOO!! I VERY MISS ALL THINGS. LIKE REALLY

I have missed out gossips, news including trending "huwaa, so sad 

Fuh, K-M-P-K was great I think (At POSITIVE side) lol. It just that I feel a bit lost and stressed out due to my performance in my subjects. Well, I made some mistakes that I have to change and be more hardworking and independent.


Ok let's pause that side of story. We go to some kind of more attracting story like "boys" even though I always annoyed with them. Actually, I had been approached by this one guy on whatsapp. To be clear, it's not him, but his friend was playing around saying, that guy was interested in me. But, that guy instead denying what his friend said. (like err)
Should I believe him or his friend? Hahahaha of course I would said no. Strongly NO.

But why iffa? WHYYY

Ok stop yelling. I have some reasons why I don't want to believe. First, I don't see his effort. I also have strong instinct (so I was exactly right) and maybe I was still admiring someone else or perhaps I don't have feeling at all to boys anymore (doesn't mean I'm ALes). But, if he does, I will think later. For now, I want to focus in studying.

Train To Busan was 7 out of 10. I become emotional by the slow action of the characters. 

\ okay bye \

21 May 2016

2

I was dazzled by the perfection,
I was dazzled by the imperfection,
I was pathetic.

One day,
Someday,
Never exist 
Except today and the past.

If you're overly attached,
Then, he's a drug
If you're attached,
Then, he's a magnet.

Few days more to studyy!!

Assalamualaikum guys,

Maka akhirnya, aku pun nekad pergi matrikulasi. Walaupun aku dapat asasi sains hayat kat Unimas, but still I have to make the right choice. It's for my futuree

I decide for studying in Kmpk which is in Gopeng, Perak. Lol dalam negeri jugak(anak jati perak la katakan) 

So, barang barang dalam 80% dah ready. 

I'll be there right on 5 June 2016 inshaAllah. Esoknya dah puasa hmm

And then aku rasa macam nak meletup. Hahahaha super excited but nervous at the same time.

Daftar online dah settle and I got Blok Seri Intan which is between Blok Seri Teja and Blok Seri Kerian.
They give me modul 1. Pehhh bapak ahhhh. Mampos aku nak struggle. So nanti maybe aku akan mintak tukar ke modul 3. I am PST by the way. Huhu

Aku akan rindukan kawan kawan yg suka buat kepala, sarcastic, baik or anything. Belajar elok elok woii. Jangan becinta cintee

Hahahahaaaaaa ok lah bye. Geli merapu banyak banyak

16 May 2016

Love , Rosie (Review)



So I would give this movie a thumbs up. If you are kind of people who get interest in love story. So, now! Go watch it. The reason that I watch this movie is because Lily Collins. Oh man, I adore her so much. She's always beautiful. Her eyes especially. Hahahha

And then it's because I saw some pictures of the movie in tumblr and we heart it. Such a beautiful quotes. And since I have watched it. I admit that movie is poetic. And I love the story line where Rosie is so strong even though it's hurt.

So what? Don't make me being a spoiler. Watch it now or buy the cd hehehehe

11 May 2016

Sadness


Recently, I've watched Inside Out. It such a nice and cute movie. Full of emotion if you're getting into it. And I learned that we need sadness. (Sorry if I was a little spoiler)

Sadness is essential because without it you can only feel anger, disgust and fear. Without sadness you'll never know what is happiness. And with sadness you can feel the burden is getting out a bit by bit. Remember? It's okay, It's normal to cry. So cry yourself. Cry when you are missing, cry when you are upset, cry when everything is worse and you can cry when you are incredibly happy. 

You need that. All of these emotion need a cry if you realise. In case nobody said to you today, you are good enough. 

Share what you feel, because it's relieving when someone can understand. You still have people around you that are ready to cheer you up. And God is always there. 

Sometimes, we are so fcking tired with life. Yeah, me too. Who never feel it right? But please appreciate what have comes around you is making you now. 

When we was small, we was so excited on every new thing we learn. We love to play around. We fall while riding bicycle. We run along the house. We jump on the bed and the cushion. We play sand. We draw our imagination on the wall. You was happy that time.

Now you have more things to go through. You are getting older and it's your decision to always make yourself happy. You can hear songs, you can make jokes, you can laugh out loud, you can disturb your friends for them to remember you because you are going to be remembered for who you are. 

Spread the happiness ✨ 

Love,Iffa

06 May 2016

Ubah Diri Sendiri

Credit to Pimpin Aku Ke Syurga - Afdholul Rahman

Mustahil kita akan menjadi lebih baik jika kita tidak berusaha menggerakkan diri menempuh kepayahan. Sedangkan jika mahu berjaya dalam peperiksaan pun, perlu angkat pensel dan ulangkaji pelajaran. Takkanlah, jika mahu melakukan perubahan sikap, dari kurang baik menjadi lebih baik, kita buat sambil lewa sahaja?

Kereta mustahil akan bergerak, jika tiada yang memandunya. Kayu pun mustahil bernilai tinggi jika tidak diproses. 

Maka, diri kita lebih-lebih lagilah. Mustahil kita akan menjadi lebih baik dan bernilai jika kita sendiri tak berusaha ke arahnya. 

Allah berfirman yang bermaksud :
Sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan ubah nasib sesuatu kaum selagi mereka tidak berusaha mengubah apa yang ada pada diri mereka. (Ar-Ra'du:11)

Kita tidak disuruh merungkai takdir Allah. Bukan itu kerja kita. Tetapi yang disuruh adalah merungkai apa yang ada dalam diri kita. 

Kita tidak disuruh mengubah takdir kerana memang kita tidak mampu dan memang tidak tahu pun. Tetapi, yang kita mampu lakukan adalah mengubah apa yang ada pada diri kita. Sikap kita, kesungguhan kita, itu yang kita boleh ubah. 

Tidak perlua cakap banyak, cuma perlu bangun dan gerakkan diri untuk ubah apa yang ada dalam diri.

02 May 2016

Penat lelah sebagai seorang iffa


Penat lelah yang aku nak cakap ni takde kena mengena dengan membasuh baju ke, menoreh getah ke, mengait kelapa dan sewaktu dengannya. Penat lelah yang aku nak berkongsi ni sebenarnya penat lelah aku dalam belajar terkedek kedek. 

Mungkin penat lelah aku tak lah seberapa tapi mana tahu kot kot ada yang boleh membuatkan pengalaman aku ni sebagai semangat untuk terus "move on"(tiada kaitan dengan jantina) 

Aku ni nak kata pandai sangat pun tak. Latar belakang keluarga aku pun bukanlah hebat hebat. Biasa biasa je. Waktu aku sekolah dulu aku ni memang jenis lambat pick up. So memang menjadi suatu masalah la bagi aku. Balik rumah aku jadi blur je. So everytime ad homework aku terpaksa tanya mak ayah aku. Waktu tu darjah 1 darjah 2 boleh la tolong. 

Lepas umur aku dah meningkat makin susah pulak. Mak aku pun bukannya terer sangat begitulah jugak dengan ayah aku. Aku sampai menangis waktu tu sebab aku tak boleh nak jawab soalan sains dalam homework yg cikgu bagi. And I feel that pain. Pain when you don't know even a single thing and you cannot rely on your family. 

Aku ada jiran. Rumahnya mungkin dalam 100 meter dari rumah aku. Mungkin sebab aku pun dah tak ingat. Dia budak India. Aku selalu pergi ke rumah dia dengan membonceng motor skuter yang dibawa oleh mak aku. Hampir setiap hari aku ke sana untuk bertanya soalan soalan sebab none of it aku boleh jawab. 

Disebabkan kesusahan yang aku rasa, aku memang tekad nak belajar betul betul. Banyak kali aku menangis sebab asyik salah dan tak faham. Because it's really sick when you are not able to do something while people can. Aku buat homework aku lepas tu aku hadam betul betul betul. Dan akhirnya aku berjaya pergi ke kelas pertama. Rupanya aku sendiri dah memintas jiran aku.

Aku sangat seronok. I don't know why but I always feel that succesful always giving me happiness and satisfication. Betullah, baru aku sedar, sebenarnya semua orang sama sahaja. Semua orang rasa benda tu susah, yang membezakan cuma orang A dia terus berusaha untuk bagi faham dan orang B dia berhenti setakat yang dia mampu sahaja. 

Cuma rugi aku tak sedar benda ni sebelum SPM. Tapi dah rezeki aku sampai situ saja Allah cakap. Mungkin rezeki aku bukan kali ni. Allah nak bagi aku merasa di bawah semula supaya aku sedar dan kenal erti syukur.

Remember this "There is no limit in learning, there will always a wall you have to climb, so please don't quit"

23 April 2016

1

Just wondering, why is it so easy to happen but harder to forget.

Why does it keep following
Why it is so complicated
Why it was everywhere

It fade but never vanish
It is calm but create hopes
It is pure sometimes
How can it appear?

 

20 April 2016

Like seriously I have to chill

Assalamualikum guys !


Entahlah tak tahu nak start dari mana but seriously I feel that I was in a battle. Mental battle. egh sumpah tension.

Yeah well, aku dah la tak dapat result SPM yang gempak. This is so frustrating. Then, harapan dan impian nak biasiswa memang tak ada la. So kau terpaksa duduk merenung nasib kau yang entah kat mana.

Serius aku down sangat sangat. So, this is how it feel when you are at the bottom point. Apa pun, aku tengah struggle ni nak bangun balik. Anggap je semua ni ujian dan rezeki aku tak ada kali ni. Huhu memang sedih aku cakap.

Aku sekarang ni tengah confuse fikir U ke matriks. Aku nak masuk u tapi tengoklah u mana yang aku dapat. Kalau akhirnya aku masuk matriks. So aku memang kena struggle betul betul.

Sampailah ke saat ni pun aku tengah rungsing dengan result aku. Jatuh teruk la. Nak menyesal pun aku tak boleh nak buat apa. Just follow the way.

Aku check matriks and dapat matriks gopeng. Em dalam negeri je so senang la. So sekarang ni tengah tunggu upu je. Wish me luck guys, Takut sangat dengan result and nasib aku. Dahla result pun biasa biasa je.

25 March 2016

JJJJJJJJJJJJJJ

Bosan tahap melangit. Hahahaha malas nya nak update. Yang aku tau sekarang ni aku tengah bosan. HAHAHAAHAHA

09 March 2016

Nice Weekend!

This entry is sambungan from the picnic.

6 March 2016, Sunday.


Ok sejujurnya, lepas balik picnic tu aku memang kena siap siap nak pergi Ipoh. Memang dah tau dah nak pegi mandi Tambun. Tapi tidur dulu kat Ipoh, esok pagi baru bertolak pergi Tambun. Memang weekend aku tetiba happening kali ni. HAHAHA dahla seronok pergi picnic pastu esok terus pergi Lost World Of Tambun. Alhamdulillah laweii rezeki jangan ditolak.

Sumpah beb, aku tak pernah terbayang pun yang aku akan pergi Tambun. Sebab ni bukan planning apa apa pun. Aku diajak serta merta je. Tapi aku kena survive la dengan kakak kakak. Diorang cool jugak sebenarnya, gila gila. Cuma aku la yang tak banyak cakap sangat sebab aku sakit tekak dah malam tu.


First time pergi vacation dengan kakak kakak. Hahaha i really cant believe it till now. Dalam kalangan diorang Kak Zaty la paling muda rasanya sebab umur dia 20. Gaya dia macam banyak cakap sikit.

So, aku nak direct terus je ke Tambun. Kitorang punya tiket dah booked. So sangat lancar je nak masuk dalam. Sebab kalau korang nak beli tiket on the spot, memang kena beratur panjang lahh, walaupun bukan musim cuti sekolah.

And then macam biasa dia bagi gelang sticker eh orang panggil ?? Takpe kalau kau tengah galas beg banyak waktu tu dia yang akan pakaikan. Pastu ade section where kau kena bagi beg kau kat kaunter, sebab dia nak check barang barang yang dilarang bawak masuk. So, kalau korang ada plan nak bawak masuk makanan senyap senyap jangan harap terlepas la hahaha. Make sure perut tu dah kenyang, tekak pun tak kering. Only mineral water je boleh bawak masuk.


Jangan risau or malu nak tunjuk beg kau kat kaunter tu sebab semua perempuan yang jaga. And then belok ke kiri untuk cari tempat simpan beg kau. Waktu ni ikut suka la nak tangkap gambar dulu or nak tangkap gambar waktu balik nanti.

Ada 3 jenis locker. Small, medium, large. Yang small tu rasanya muat untuk dua orang je rasanya. Yang medium maybe dalam 5 orang. Yang large 8 orang. Yang large harga dia 35 ringgit. yang medium tu maybe 20 lebih and small maybe belas belas.

Kami ambik yang large sebab senang lagipun kitorang ramai. Locker dia tak payah guna kunci. Dia macam moden sikit. For locker and pelampung dia bagi gelang jugak. So nanti kalau kau nak bukak locker banyak kali pun boleh cuma kena scan kat bar code gelang tu.

Pelampung pulak macam rugi sikit. Sebab satu pelampung harga dia RM26. Kalau dah pulangkan nanti dia bagi balik 10 ringgit kau. Yang ruginya sebab pelampung tu cuma boleh main untuk dua tempat je, kat section wave dengan adventure. Kalau yang gelongsor tinggi tinggi tu dia dah ada bagi free pelampung cuma kena beratur je. So better takyah sewa pelampung. Kalau nak pun ambik satu je.

Mula mula kitorang dah masuk dalam kolam and then baru terfikir kenapa masuk dalam air dulu. Sebab tak main pun lagi game game kat situ. Pastu dengan basah basah tu main la yang ni

Serius aku cakap best naik benda ni sebab tak gayat pun. Seronok gila rasa macam kena buai walaupun laju. 

Yang ni memang serius gayat wehhh. HAHAHAAH kau memang terer kalau kau bukak mata waktu dia menghayun ke bawah tanpa jerit. Aku try bukak mata aku waktu dia hayun ke bawah. And aku rasa muka aku pucat waktu tu sebab tahan gayat.


Roller coaster dia pun best la jugak. Takdelah gayat pun. Tapi puas la sebab dapat naik roller coaster first time.
Okay sampai situ je aku nak cerita. Malas dah nak cerita. Bye


Jumpa lagi akak akak semua ;)

TP PICNIC

Assalamualaikum and hye everybody :)


Akhirnya, menjadi jugak picnic TP. Dah rancang lama dah. Rasanya dari hujung bulan Januari lagi. And sepatutnya nak buat dalam bulan Februari, tapi ada beberapa halangan so tertunda la sampai 5 Mac 2016. But still tak cukup 10 orang. Tak mengapa lah, kita plan lama macam mana pun, Allah yang tentukan semua ni.

I really had a nice weekend. Location Taman Tasik Taiping. 5 Mac 2016, Saturday. Tema pink hewhew





So we have that TP alphabet balloons, and some of white and pink heart balloons behind us. That was bought from igshop. Diana handled these and print out some pictures of us in our school age. If you can see there was some pictures hanging above us with the TP. 

Why TP?
Because TP is our official name group.








 

Ok ade sampah sampah tu kitorang tak sedar waktu tangkap gambar. Thank you to adik wawa sebab dia yang tangkap untuk gambar full ahli TP yang datang.















Actually, this picnic is for them. Celebrating their birthday even it is too late. They are the oldest among us.  So also, we have one chocolate cake bought by Suhada. Picnic DONE!


29 February 2016

Asrama




Rindu pulak nak duduk asrama. Aku bukan budak asrama pun, entah macam mana sesat masuk waktu seminggu sebelum SPM. 

Tapi aku memang pernah dah masuk Asrama (sekolah kluster kecemerlangan) maaflah nak jugak cari populariti hahahaha. Itu pun sebab ade program perfect score. So I've been living in hostel on form 3 and form 5 sebab ada exam besauu. Bila kira kira, dalam dua bulan jugaklah aku pernah menginap kat asrama tu. 

Best sebenarnya asrama aku ni. Budak budak sikit. Lepastu dorm pun luas. Tandas pun besar and dalam dorm. 

Sekolah aku ni separuh budak luar separuh budak asrama so dia tak boleh la dipanggil sekolah sbp sebab dia ambik budak dalam negeri je. Which is called sekolah "Rancangan Khas"

Rasa macam nak flashback pulak. Nak cerita pengalaman yang aku ingat jela. Kalau nak cerita semua memang banyak la. Sampai esok tak habis. 

Waktu Form 3 (Program Perfect Score)
Yang aku ingat pasal dorm hujung and aras bawah. Dorm bawah katil double decker. Tapi tak kisah sangat asalkan dapat duduk dengan geng hahaha sampai cop cop bagai.
Pastu ada part yang riuh rendah sebab kucing, Aku sampai sekarang tak faham pasal kucing tu.
First, pasal kucing tu masuk dalam dorm. Peh, yang takut kucing ni la paling kelako. Sampai tak nak jejak lantai duhh
Pastu part serika kat bilik iron. Ada kucing tunggu kat luar. Yang peliknya kucing tu macam nak terkam kitorang yang kat dalam as if aku bagi contoh dia macam polis yang tengah tunggu perompak keluar.Haduii. Kitorang takut gila waktu tu. But, nasib baik ah ada geng yang telah mengalihkan perhatian HAHAHA


Waktu Form 5 (Perfect Score)
Aku rasa pancit namati waktu ni. Penat wehhh. Tidur pun asyik tak cukup T_T
So, yang aku ingat duduk kat aras tengah and semua dorm kat aras tengah bukan katil double decker except for one. 
Yang aku tak boleh lupa waktu main truth and dare. Dalam phone aku ada lagi weh video hangpa hahaha.
Bila pergi surau waktu subuh, semua pakat mengantuk tahap gaban tapi tahan je. 


Waktu Form 5 (SPM)
Ya Allah, aku bukan nak cakap apa, tapi banyak jugaklah benda yang horrible and banyak bagi impact but fun at the same time. Sebab bila lagi kau nak merasa semua tu. Contoh, waktu annual dinner asrama. Tetibe je terlibat. 
Beli makanan kat kedai cg yus
Solat berjemaah
Lari sebab kena kejar (sebab ingat kena rasuk hantu) #kamibertelekung lari macam kereta api.


Ok bye goodnight





27 February 2016

Debaran Result SPM


Assalamualaikum brothers and sisters




It's 2.34 P.M 27 February 2016
Only a few days left until my result came out. Yet, I feel freaking nervous and sad all the time.
I am afraid because I do not want to be hopeful or giving up. 

Memang menyesal jugaklah sebab rasa macam tak dapat nak buat yang terbaik untuk kali ini. SPM kot. Banyak jugaklah yang aku tak yakin apa yang aku dah jawab. Tawakal jelah walaupun usaha aku tak ada lah sehebat mana pun. InshaAllah kalau dah rezeki alhamdulillah. 

Takut nak pergi sekolah nanti, nak jumpa kawan kawan yang dah dua bulan lebih tak jumpa. Aku sendiri taktau nak react apa waktu pergi sekolah nanti. Adui

So memang sampai sekarang aku tak buat apa apa. Kerja tak lesen pun tak. Orang banyak cakap rugi la tak buat waktu cuti ni. Emm malas ah, taktau nak cakap apa dah. Bukan keputusan aku pun. 



Aku berminat nak jadi pharmacist. Interesting dari dulu lagi bagi aku, cuma aku taktau tu bidang apa hahaha sekarang dah faham. Kalau nak jadi pharmacist ni banyak orang cakap kena terer subjek Chemistry. Alhamdulillah Chemistry aku boleh la sikit sikit. And aku minat subjek chemistry walaupun susah. Sebab suka tengok bahan bahan kimia.

 
Menjadi pharmacist ni bukanlah senang aku rasa. Kena rigid and sangat careful bila nak buat ubat or apa apa. Pasal buat buat ubat ni lah aku suka. Because being pharmacist is not going to make people feel pain. Just create medicine to cure them. While being a doctor and other health care profession, you must face all patients and I am not that kind of people that can bear to see them in pain. I will cry and feel sympathy. But what I know pharmacist, doctor, nurse and others health care carriers are needed for each other. 


Entahlah, aku punya perasaan menyesal tu sampai sekarang tak hilang hilang. Aku menyesal sebab tak study sampai score especially for AddMaths. Teringin nak rasa dapat A. Malu dengan kawan kawan tak dapat nak membanggakan parents. Sometimes I want to cry because I cannot give my best and always dissappointing people around me especially my parents. 




19 February 2016

Recommended website

Assalamualaikum and hye there :)

Well in case if you are clueless on where to find some tips or ways, I would like to recommend this website. It super cool for me. WikiHow . It includes picture and I really love that website if I need some help to do anything.


If you want to watch streaming movies. Watch it here streaming movie
Don't worry you don't have to download anything. But you have to click on the video because it does not play automatically as you open it.

Watch anime here

I prefer to watch korean drama here Korean Dramas . But I rarely watch korean dramas, so I didnt know what's the best website to watch them.

On youtube, if you are kind of bored. You can try watch this channel :

That's all. If anything just ask me

04 February 2016

Some tips for speaking fluently

I found this on a website and feel like want to share some of it. Enjoy

While speaking

1. Think aloud

If you are thinking “That’s a difficult question”, “I’ve never really thought about that before”, “I’m not sure that I could even explain in my own language” or “I really don’t know what my answer to that question is”, then that is exactly what you should say. Not only does following this tip fill silence, but you’ll often find that by the time you’ve finished saying that initial thought you’ve actually thought of at least some way of answering the question. Similar things that pop into people’s heads and should probably then pop straight out of their mouths include “I was following the question up until…”, “I don’t really know where to start” and “What part of the question should I answer first?”

2. Start speaking, then think about what you are going to say

This is related to thinking aloud above and to learning sentence starters, mentioned below. Phrases which can start lots of sentences and are long enough to give you thinking time include “In my limited experience,…”, “I have generally found that,…”, “From my point of view,…”, “I don’t have any strong views about this one way or the other, but…”, “Off the top of my head,…”, “My initial answer would be…” and “The first thing that springs to mind is…”

3. Fill silence

This is related to the two things above but is a much easier thing to keep in mind – fill all silence with something or the other, even it is just sounds like “um” and “err”,  extending some words while you think of others (“It was kiiiiiiind of aaaaa…”), echoing back the question or statement that you are responding to, or commenting on it before you make your own contribution (“That’s a difficult/ an unusual/ an interesting question”, etc).

4. Send the turn back

This is really only an emergency measure that could interfere with developing your fluency if you use it too much, but one way of avoiding uncomfortable silences is to ask something to the other person to give yourself time to think of what you want to say. The most natural way of doing this is to check the meaning of their question or previous statement with questions like “I’m not sure what… means”. This can be done fairly naturally even if you do understand what they want from you if you use questions to double check like “Do you mean…(or…)?”, “Are you asking me…?”, “Just to double check,…” and “So, if I understand you correctly you want to know…” As long as you don’t use it too much, you can also get people to answer their question before you have to, with questions “Can you give me an example of what you mean?” and “How would you answer that question?” There are also a few common answers that naturally send the turn straight back like “Doesn’t everyone?” and “Do you really need to ask?”

5. Use words from your language, then explain them

A lot of people get stuck when they think of a word in their own language which they can’t (quickly) translate into English. The easiest way around this is to mention the word in your own language and then explain it using phrases like “I don’t know how to say it in English but in my language we say ‘….’, which means something like…” and “There is an expression in my language ‘…’ which is something like…”

6. Use vague language

Native speakers often give themselves thinking time by saying things like “something like”, “or something like that”, “I suppose”, etc, even when in fact they are fairly or very sure about what they are saying. Other useful phrases to do this with include “I guess”, “more or less”, “You could say”, “I’d probably say” and “or so I’d imagine”. You can also use vague language like “thing” and “stuff” when you could get stuck on a word that you don’t understand, and there are more colourful versions of these like “thingy”, “thingamabob”, “thingamajig” and “whatsit”. You can also do the same for people’s names with phrases like “Whatshisname”, “that guy” and “you know the guy”.

7. Give provisional answers

One way to prompt yourself to speak before thinking too much is to always remember that you can change your mind later. Useful phrases when this might be the case include “Off the top of my head,…”, “The first thing that springs to mind is…”, “As far as I remember,…”, “I’ll check if this is really true but…” and “I’ve got the actual information elsewhere but…” These are useful sentence starters for filling silence and getting you speaking even when you aren’t likely to change your mind, but if you do you can add phrases like “Wait a minute” and “Come to think of it”.

8. Really prioritise fluency while speaking

It’s incredibly difficult to improve fluency and other things at the same time, so if you really want to improve how quickly and smoothly you speak, you have to put other things on the backburner. This particularly means not concentrating on accuracy, be that accurate grammar, perfect pronunciation, getting the level of politeness exactly right, or saying exactly what you mean to say. With the exception of the kinds of language that are mentioned as useful in this article like sentences starters and vague language, you will also need to (temporarily) forget about using more complex language and things you’ve just learnt and have been desperate to try out, instead trying to use language you already know well to explain more or less what you want to say.

9. Accept other weaknesses

This is another way of putting the point above. If you are going to speak more smoothly than usual, it will inevitably lead to grammar mistakes, more L1 interference in your pronunciation, less complex vocabulary, etc, so just accept that and work on those another time when they become your priorities.  

10. Use the language you know to say what you can

… rather than trying to explain exactly the ideas in your head. At the most extreme level this can include agreeing when you really have the opposite opinion just because agreeing is easier or saying “It’s something like an English bungalow” when you know it isn’t that much like it at all (if a more accurate description doesn’t really matter).


01 February 2016

31 January 2016

Short love story

Created by me, kind of love. Hahahha next time I'll do another genre. Should be a long story but just end here la because i hate jiwang jiwang




29 January 2016

Facts About Me

Assalamualaikum Muslimah Wa Muslimin sekalian,

Today I went to my school again, but secondary ones. Smk Taman Tasik. Datang pun saja nak lepak kejap dengan kawan kawan kat sekolah. Tapi tujuan utamanya nak tengok Cikgu Basri bersara. Our Add Maths teacher. Faham faham jela sekolah aku ni ke Adat Kemelayuan sikit. Contohnya, kalau cikgu bersara sekolah aku akan buat macam pelamin hahaha siap ada pasukan kompang lagi. Kalau budak budak nak dekat Exam PMR or now is known and changed to PT3 and SPM, sekolah aku buat suapan pulut kuning. Hahahaha. Melayu giteww.. 

Teringat jugak dulu cikgu selalu duk buat countdown nak bersara. Its not that sad pun, sebab cikgu nak bebas. Sebab tu tak sedih sangat sebab memang cikgu beria ria nak keluar dari sekolah. Tapi of course la cikgu sedih sikit sebab lepas ni dah takde ngajor ngajor kat sekolah. Ok end of story.

18 January 2016

After 5 years!

Assalamualaikum guys ! :)


Ok today, my 12 yo classmates and I went for a meet. At first everyone was awkward, but since there was about 9 people who were coming (including me), those awkwardness fade away. There were Amira, Farhanah, Fatihah, Ong, Farisya, Alya, Hanani and Sarah. 

Benda biasa la sembang sembang apa semua lepas lama tak jumpa. But jumpa cikgu la, huhu sangat la malu. Aku pun tak paham, semua kerja nak tolak je. "Wei, hg pegi la" ''Wei sapa nak pegi dulu ni" ''Wei aku taknak hg la'' That was hella kalut hahaahaha

Pastu ada la tolong cikgu. Tolong pasang langsir kat bilik pss. Pss was like peh teringat semua. Rindu gila kot kat sekolah rendah. Sekolah rendah aku perempuan semua. Banyak jugak benda yang best pasal sekolah perempuan semua ni. Boleh terloncat sana sini, dalam kelas boleh fangirling beramai ramai, main kejar kejar, lompat parit. Aduh tak boleh lupa semua benda tu. Kena denda pun tak kesah sangat sebab semua perempuan. 

And banyak jugak la sekolah ni mengajar aku. Jadi sopan, pembersih baik dengan semua orang. But, bila kau masuk sekolah yg campur memang kejutan budaya sikit la. Bila dengar orang mencarut ''weh selamba gila mencarut''. Yes, aku rasa semua yg sekolah rendah perempuan terkejut dengan benda ni. Ahhahaha. 

And then we went for kelas darjah 6 Dahlia. Kelas kedua. Like there was only about 15 students only!! Really feww okayy! Kelas aku dulu dalam 34 orang jugak la. Bebudak ni tanya kitorang yg kitorang ni bestfriend ke? "haah kami satu kelas bestfriend. Kami kelas teratai dulu. Tapi tak semestinya kelas first korang tak boleh lawan. Anggap sebagai satu saingan and semangat" begitulah kata Amira budak mrsm hewhew

Bebudak sekarang hyperactive kemain eh? Aahaha yg fangirling dari jauh melambai hai hai kat kitorang. Ramai bebudak yang tenung kitorang macam tengok mamat kpop hensem je. Siap cop cop bagai. Creepyy wehhh ahhahahaaa, korang tau apa. Kemain ah bebudak sekarang. Yes, berani. Aku tak paham pasai pa dorang berani. 

15 January 2016

Passion

Assalamualaikum yo there!


Ok passion tu natang ape? Passion is when you are deeply in love with kind of thing, and kau rasa macam jiwa kau kat situ. Ha macam tu la kot. 


Suhada mencadangkan aku tulis pasal passion aku kat entry ni. So, what is my passion? Is it something that no one knows about it or really dah tau sangat, nampak muka aku je dah terpampang kat muka.


Firstly, I really love nature. 
Rasa sangat dekat dengan Allah. Bila tengok pun akan ada feel yang berbunga je hati ni walaupun hati kau takdelah berbunga sangat pun. Besides, I can easily swept out negative thoughts or clear my mind that is full with negative charge. I don't know why. Sebab tu la Nabi Muhammad S.A.W pun suka dengan nature ni. 



Second, books.
Long time ago, I have my passion for this. Bila ada pesta buku dekat kamunting konfem aku kerah mak ayah aku pergi. Hahahahaha. Aku memang suka buku buku. Selalunya akan beli la. Tapi waktu tu setakat buku apa je aku beli. Umur pun masih mentah mentah je. But, mesti rasa nak beli bila mata kau dah dipenuhi dengan buku. Rasa cayaq macam hg duk tengok laki/pempuan smart memang perfect taste hg, macam tu la bila aku tengok buku.

Pastu, aku selalu suruh mak ayah aku beli buku cerita baru. Kekadang lepas beli masuk kereta, dah habis baca buku (ok ni kalau buku nipis). And then kat sekolah pun, kalau nampak buku ada kat belakang mesti aku ambik and aku baca. Sampai cikgu pun puji. Well, I'm nerd before plus dengan pasif dan pemalu serta tak banyak cakap yang kau boleh cari dalam anime hahahah gelaklaa

So over all, aku dah menelaah macam macam genre buku tapi sampai form 2 je la. Ekpedisi, novel kahwin paksa, si putih salju, singa Allah. Sampai bila aku ingat balik, asal aku baca buku tu. Kenapa aku tak baca matluthfi ke, tarbiah sentap ke. AHHAHA Sorry to say, buku buku cool macam tu tak wujud lagi waktu aku rajin membaca. 

Sekarang, aku rasa macam dah tak mampu nak beli buku, mak ayah aku mana ada beli buku dah. Duit dengan buku pulak dah macam kekasih gelap dan rasa sayang dua dua. Aku tengok orang orang sekeliling ada buku rasa sedih kot. Then, aku ni kalau jenis yg bila baca buku orang aku tak baca habis sebab rasa mcm tu buku orang. Duit orang. Aku pun frust menonggeng. Lagi satu punca aku stop baca buku sebab form 3 kan dah PMR. Memang fokus bebeno la.



Third, stuff.
Baju, make up, beg, jam, facial, kasut, tudung. Serius aku suka yang di mention kan sebentar tadi. Ada yang certain people perasan yang aku ada banyak and selalu tukar tukar. Aku cepat bosan and aku pantang tengok benda baru dan adorable. Make up tak la, aku tak suka make up tapi suka. Tak suka sebab tak nak jadi fake, while suka sebab nampak sebagai satu ciri yg kau tu adalah ciri sikit macam typical perempuan. Nak kahwin nanti, makeup aku taknak over over. Nak yang asal nampak cantik dan natural. 

Baju aku, banyaklah jugak baju yang aku beli guna duit sendiri kalau setakat 10 atau belas belas ringgit je. Dan banyaklah jugak yang aku menyesal kenapa aku beli baju ni lepas tu tak pakai dah. Jam aku fuh, aku suka jam dari kecik. Jam tu dah macam aksesori wajib kat tangan dari dulu. Sebab aku jenis suka tertanya pukul berapa eh sekarang. Untuk menghilangkan kegelisahan pukul berapa, maka melekatlah jam kat tangan aku. 

Tudung bawal, shawl keknis, bawal crepe, pashmina. Semua dah pernah beli. Asal nampak je ya allah dugaan mendatang. Beg dan kasut aku dah muak la pulak sekarang. Sampai aku taktau nak pakai yang mana ni.  

Facial pun dah makin minat sekarang. Selalu dah pakai mask. Nice sebab ok je setiap kali aku pakai. Sekarang ni macam tertarik nak beli yg orang duk spray spray kat muka tu. I love yang segar segar ni. Hahahaha ok cukup, Berleter panjang dah ni. Bye

10 January 2016

Dilwale is so awesome

So recently, I've watched Dilwale with my friends. Should I mention them? 
Okay la, Puteri, Diana, Suhada, Alani, Syubb, Nuby, Wawa ehehe

Weiii ya Tuhan, best gila weii Dilwale. Aku rasa nak masuk movie. FAHAM TAK?
Aku paling suka part Kajol as Meera bila flip hair, muka flawless namateyy!! Shah Rukh Han pun still handsome T___T

Tu satu benda, ada banyak benda lagi yang interesting pasal movie ni. Part Srk kena tipu, romantic moment between Srk and kajol, yang lawak pun lawak gila penat gelak dalam panggung.

Dahla movie ni sat sat keluar muzik janam janam. Aku macam shaiihhtt.. Kena kat part sedih memang sedih. It just that thanks pengarah sebab daebak ah boleh masukkan semua ciri dalam movie ni. Setting, lagu semua memang terbaik ah.

Aku rasa mau mau, cerita ni jadi nostalgia bila aku dah tua nanti. Yela, first time kot tengok hindustan kat panggung. 

Semalam tengok lagi actually, dua kali dilwale mwehehehe



Recent favourites junk

Assalamualaikum to all of you, how's your sunday's so far?

I just want to share that I really addicted to this one snacks. Maybe, you have know or even taste it.
It was Mamee MONSTER "PerisaPedas". Entahlah kenapa suka sangat dengan keropok ni. Fyi, I really love hot and spicy.

So, what other snacks that I love so far were perfecto, chachos, corntoz. Yasss i likee those unhealthy food so much. But, don't eat a lot at once. Sakit perut kang. 

What unbeliavable about me is that I don't prefer super ring like most people do since I was a kid. I don't know why. Agaknya sebab perisa dia terlampau kuat kot. Kuat? *hahahha whatever.

What about chocolate? 

Hm, of course I do like it since that I was a girl. I don't have any doubt that chocolate can boost up mood, because it really happen. Those sweetness and bitter taste would be fit on ur taste bud and you will feel that you are in a different world. Phewww 

So, that's all now. Meet next. Bye <3