In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful
23 December 2016
All the time.
16 December 2016
End
Oh yes, instagram first. It has been a few days I was offline."
I was waiting for the picture to load one by one. And then, one picture made me stunned for a moment of silence. Deep silence in the midnight.
I don't even know how to describe it. I was totally feeling sucked. Then I locked my phone and closed my eyes while covering my body with my warmest blanket.
It was calm, then I slowly erased him from my wonderwall.
13 December 2016
Exhausting days has start
It's tiring but I love to study somehow because I'm a curious person.
And I need to finish my assignment lab report and so on (so many to list)
06 December 2016
I can see from your eyes
How pitiful was it to keep demanding for something that you know you will never own.
I was afraid to face this reality although I have gone through much
I have like someone (not one but so many) and I've never get even one of them. Come on, please laugh at me
My heart was describe like "It's rotten man. You should free it." But free is what you can't even control. You keep going everywhere you want because you want to feel how was it being in another place. That's how I describe my heart.
Sometimes, love it's not what I seek for. I am a normal person that always feel that I need attention and people to think about how I feel. How pathetic I was.
I am grateful somehow to be me, because at a point even I was hurt. I was scared, people always take me as a good girl. Then, I realize I only know how to be a good girl and I can only be a victim. Always.
01 December 2016
What is inside our feelings?
But previous studies have found marked changes in bodily sensations in mood disorders, Nummenmaa says. "For instance, with depression sometimes people have pain in their chest."
And there's even some evidence that when you change your own body language — like your posture or stance — you can alter your mind.
To be honest, I was confused with my own self. I don't even know what I'm feeling right now, later and so on. And I'm a bit worried because i had a bit pain in right side of my chest(i-think-i-had-indigestion).
So, I will start with anger first, the most hard feeling to deal with. Anger is something that out of our control. It can be really dangerous especially for patient people. They might kill you. LOL kidding. Beware of this feeling. I'm the type of anger that will push everything by my hands and don't even care it will be broke or what.
Sometimes, I just shut my mouth because any curse can be released from my mouth.
Sadness is the inside pain that you have to endure. Feeling like your heart was throbbed without anyone notice. How do I handle sadness?
Well said, I choose to forget and appreciating what I have now. It's not like you forget everything, it was about the willingness.
I
"I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh, but I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry."
24 November 2016
Time
That you need to hold
And when it is the time to say goodbye
The birds chirping like it's the time
19 November 2016
Burn
I took a deep breath. My mood was terribly lost somewhere because I can't even draw a fake smile on my face. I was barely nothing to him..
The lesson will start by 5 minutes on, yet he still didn't came. The tutor came in and start teaching. He appeared suddenly as soon as 10 minutes of lesson passed by. There was no any remorse drawn on his face. The class ended and I just went out without looking at him not like usual.
He called my name a few times. I pretend as a deaf girl and keep walking without looking back. Then, someone stabbed my hand from behind. It's him.
"Um, no actually I have a favor. Can you please sent me the assignment you have did. I know you must have finished it already. So, how about you send me, because the final date was tomorrow. And I don't even start anything yet. Don't worry I will not copy yours. I will change a little, but please I need the copy of yours as soon as possible."
My mouth was muttered, it's like something was burning and keep burning.
My reaction driving him nuts. "Hey, do you hear me actually or you don't want to help me?"
Pap! A sudden slap was on his face. My hand did that without my consciousness. I ran away.
Then, I bumped into Brenda and we seat in one cafe. She forced me to say everything that in my mind because on these few days, I don't smile a lot like before. She said I look empty.
I explained to her, and before I can finish a sentence, my tear drops. I was kinda horrible that time.
18 November 2016
Break
17 September 2016
September?
21 May 2016
2
Few days more to studyy!!
16 May 2016
Love , Rosie (Review)
So I would give this movie a thumbs up. If you are kind of people who get interest in love story. So, now! Go watch it. The reason that I watch this movie is because Lily Collins. Oh man, I adore her so much. She's always beautiful. Her eyes especially. Hahahha
And then it's because I saw some pictures of the movie in tumblr and we heart it. Such a beautiful quotes. And since I have watched it. I admit that movie is poetic. And I love the story line where Rosie is so strong even though it's hurt.
So what? Don't make me being a spoiler. Watch it now or buy the cd hehehehe
11 May 2016
Sadness
06 May 2016
Ubah Diri Sendiri
02 May 2016
Penat lelah sebagai seorang iffa
Penat lelah yang aku nak cakap ni takde kena mengena dengan membasuh baju ke, menoreh getah ke, mengait kelapa dan sewaktu dengannya. Penat lelah yang aku nak berkongsi ni sebenarnya penat lelah aku dalam belajar terkedek kedek.
Mungkin penat lelah aku tak lah seberapa tapi mana tahu kot kot ada yang boleh membuatkan pengalaman aku ni sebagai semangat untuk terus "move on"(tiada kaitan dengan jantina)
Aku ni nak kata pandai sangat pun tak. Latar belakang keluarga aku pun bukanlah hebat hebat. Biasa biasa je. Waktu aku sekolah dulu aku ni memang jenis lambat pick up. So memang menjadi suatu masalah la bagi aku. Balik rumah aku jadi blur je. So everytime ad homework aku terpaksa tanya mak ayah aku. Waktu tu darjah 1 darjah 2 boleh la tolong.
Lepas umur aku dah meningkat makin susah pulak. Mak aku pun bukannya terer sangat begitulah jugak dengan ayah aku. Aku sampai menangis waktu tu sebab aku tak boleh nak jawab soalan sains dalam homework yg cikgu bagi. And I feel that pain. Pain when you don't know even a single thing and you cannot rely on your family.
Aku ada jiran. Rumahnya mungkin dalam 100 meter dari rumah aku. Mungkin sebab aku pun dah tak ingat. Dia budak India. Aku selalu pergi ke rumah dia dengan membonceng motor skuter yang dibawa oleh mak aku. Hampir setiap hari aku ke sana untuk bertanya soalan soalan sebab none of it aku boleh jawab.
Disebabkan kesusahan yang aku rasa, aku memang tekad nak belajar betul betul. Banyak kali aku menangis sebab asyik salah dan tak faham. Because it's really sick when you are not able to do something while people can. Aku buat homework aku lepas tu aku hadam betul betul betul. Dan akhirnya aku berjaya pergi ke kelas pertama. Rupanya aku sendiri dah memintas jiran aku.
Aku sangat seronok. I don't know why but I always feel that succesful always giving me happiness and satisfication. Betullah, baru aku sedar, sebenarnya semua orang sama sahaja. Semua orang rasa benda tu susah, yang membezakan cuma orang A dia terus berusaha untuk bagi faham dan orang B dia berhenti setakat yang dia mampu sahaja.
Cuma rugi aku tak sedar benda ni sebelum SPM. Tapi dah rezeki aku sampai situ saja Allah cakap. Mungkin rezeki aku bukan kali ni. Allah nak bagi aku merasa di bawah semula supaya aku sedar dan kenal erti syukur.
Remember this "There is no limit in learning, there will always a wall you have to climb, so please don't quit"
23 April 2016
1
20 April 2016
Like seriously I have to chill
Entahlah tak tahu nak start dari mana but seriously I feel that I was in a battle. Mental battle. egh sumpah tension.
Yeah well, aku dah la tak dapat result SPM yang gempak. This is so frustrating. Then, harapan dan impian nak biasiswa memang tak ada la. So kau terpaksa duduk merenung nasib kau yang entah kat mana.
Serius aku down sangat sangat. So, this is how it feel when you are at the bottom point. Apa pun, aku tengah struggle ni nak bangun balik. Anggap je semua ni ujian dan rezeki aku tak ada kali ni. Huhu memang sedih aku cakap.
Aku sekarang ni tengah confuse fikir U ke matriks. Aku nak masuk u tapi tengoklah u mana yang aku dapat. Kalau akhirnya aku masuk matriks. So aku memang kena struggle betul betul.
Sampailah ke saat ni pun aku tengah rungsing dengan result aku. Jatuh teruk la. Nak menyesal pun aku tak boleh nak buat apa. Just follow the way.
Aku check matriks and dapat matriks gopeng. Em dalam negeri je so senang la. So sekarang ni tengah tunggu upu je. Wish me luck guys, Takut sangat dengan result and nasib aku. Dahla result pun biasa biasa je.
25 March 2016
JJJJJJJJJJJJJJ
09 March 2016
Nice Weekend!
6 March 2016, Sunday.
Ok sejujurnya, lepas balik picnic tu aku memang kena siap siap nak pergi Ipoh. Memang dah tau dah nak pegi mandi Tambun. Tapi tidur dulu kat Ipoh, esok pagi baru bertolak pergi Tambun. Memang weekend aku tetiba happening kali ni. HAHAHA dahla seronok pergi picnic pastu esok terus pergi Lost World Of Tambun. Alhamdulillah laweii rezeki jangan ditolak.
Sumpah beb, aku tak pernah terbayang pun yang aku akan pergi Tambun. Sebab ni bukan planning apa apa pun. Aku diajak serta merta je. Tapi aku kena survive la dengan kakak kakak. Diorang cool jugak sebenarnya, gila gila. Cuma aku la yang tak banyak cakap sangat sebab aku sakit tekak dah malam tu.
First time pergi vacation dengan kakak kakak. Hahaha i really cant believe it till now. Dalam kalangan diorang Kak Zaty la paling muda rasanya sebab umur dia 20. Gaya dia macam banyak cakap sikit.
So, aku nak direct terus je ke Tambun. Kitorang punya tiket dah booked. So sangat lancar je nak masuk dalam. Sebab kalau korang nak beli tiket on the spot, memang kena beratur panjang lahh, walaupun bukan musim cuti sekolah.
And then macam biasa dia bagi gelang sticker eh orang panggil ?? Takpe kalau kau tengah galas beg banyak waktu tu dia yang akan pakaikan. Pastu ade section where kau kena bagi beg kau kat kaunter, sebab dia nak check barang barang yang dilarang bawak masuk. So, kalau korang ada plan nak bawak masuk makanan senyap senyap jangan harap terlepas la hahaha. Make sure perut tu dah kenyang, tekak pun tak kering. Only mineral water je boleh bawak masuk.
Jangan risau or malu nak tunjuk beg kau kat kaunter tu sebab semua perempuan yang jaga. And then belok ke kiri untuk cari tempat simpan beg kau. Waktu ni ikut suka la nak tangkap gambar dulu or nak tangkap gambar waktu balik nanti.
Ada 3 jenis locker. Small, medium, large. Yang small tu rasanya muat untuk dua orang je rasanya. Yang medium maybe dalam 5 orang. Yang large 8 orang. Yang large harga dia 35 ringgit. yang medium tu maybe 20 lebih and small maybe belas belas.
Kami ambik yang large sebab senang lagipun kitorang ramai. Locker dia tak payah guna kunci. Dia macam moden sikit. For locker and pelampung dia bagi gelang jugak. So nanti kalau kau nak bukak locker banyak kali pun boleh cuma kena scan kat bar code gelang tu.
Pelampung pulak macam rugi sikit. Sebab satu pelampung harga dia RM26. Kalau dah pulangkan nanti dia bagi balik 10 ringgit kau. Yang ruginya sebab pelampung tu cuma boleh main untuk dua tempat je, kat section wave dengan adventure. Kalau yang gelongsor tinggi tinggi tu dia dah ada bagi free pelampung cuma kena beratur je. So better takyah sewa pelampung. Kalau nak pun ambik satu je.
Mula mula kitorang dah masuk dalam kolam and then baru terfikir kenapa masuk dalam air dulu. Sebab tak main pun lagi game game kat situ. Pastu dengan basah basah tu main la yang ni
TP PICNIC
Akhirnya, menjadi jugak picnic TP. Dah rancang lama dah. Rasanya dari hujung bulan Januari lagi. And sepatutnya nak buat dalam bulan Februari, tapi ada beberapa halangan so tertunda la sampai 5 Mac 2016. But still tak cukup 10 orang. Tak mengapa lah, kita plan lama macam mana pun, Allah yang tentukan semua ni.
I really had a nice weekend. Location Taman Tasik Taiping. 5 Mac 2016, Saturday. Tema pink hewhew





Ok ade sampah sampah tu kitorang tak sedar waktu tangkap gambar. Thank you to adik wawa sebab dia yang tangkap untuk gambar full ahli TP yang datang.
Actually, this picnic is for them. Celebrating their birthday even it is too late. They are the oldest among us. So also, we have one chocolate cake bought by Suhada. Picnic DONE!
29 February 2016
Asrama
27 February 2016
Debaran Result SPM
19 February 2016
Recommended website
04 February 2016
Some tips for speaking fluently
While speaking
1. Think aloud
If you are thinking “That’s a difficult question”, “I’ve never really thought about that before”, “I’m not sure that I could even explain in my own language” or “I really don’t know what my answer to that question is”, then that is exactly what you should say. Not only does following this tip fill silence, but you’ll often find that by the time you’ve finished saying that initial thought you’ve actually thought of at least some way of answering the question. Similar things that pop into people’s heads and should probably then pop straight out of their mouths include “I was following the question up until…”, “I don’t really know where to start” and “What part of the question should I answer first?”
2. Start speaking, then think about what you are going to say
This is related to thinking aloud above and to learning sentence starters, mentioned below. Phrases which can start lots of sentences and are long enough to give you thinking time include “In my limited experience,…”, “I have generally found that,…”, “From my point of view,…”, “I don’t have any strong views about this one way or the other, but…”, “Off the top of my head,…”, “My initial answer would be…” and “The first thing that springs to mind is…”
3. Fill silence
This is related to the two things above but is a much easier thing to keep in mind – fill all silence with something or the other, even it is just sounds like “um” and “err”, extending some words while you think of others (“It was kiiiiiiind of aaaaa…”), echoing back the question or statement that you are responding to, or commenting on it before you make your own contribution (“That’s a difficult/ an unusual/ an interesting question”, etc).
4. Send the turn back
This is really only an emergency measure that could interfere with developing your fluency if you use it too much, but one way of avoiding uncomfortable silences is to ask something to the other person to give yourself time to think of what you want to say. The most natural way of doing this is to check the meaning of their question or previous statement with questions like “I’m not sure what… means”. This can be done fairly naturally even if you do understand what they want from you if you use questions to double check like “Do you mean…(or…)?”, “Are you asking me…?”, “Just to double check,…” and “So, if I understand you correctly you want to know…” As long as you don’t use it too much, you can also get people to answer their question before you have to, with questions “Can you give me an example of what you mean?” and “How would you answer that question?” There are also a few common answers that naturally send the turn straight back like “Doesn’t everyone?” and “Do you really need to ask?”
5. Use words from your language, then explain them
A lot of people get stuck when they think of a word in their own language which they can’t (quickly) translate into English. The easiest way around this is to mention the word in your own language and then explain it using phrases like “I don’t know how to say it in English but in my language we say ‘….’, which means something like…” and “There is an expression in my language ‘…’ which is something like…”
6. Use vague language
Native speakers often give themselves thinking time by saying things like “something like”, “or something like that”, “I suppose”, etc, even when in fact they are fairly or very sure about what they are saying. Other useful phrases to do this with include “I guess”, “more or less”, “You could say”, “I’d probably say” and “or so I’d imagine”. You can also use vague language like “thing” and “stuff” when you could get stuck on a word that you don’t understand, and there are more colourful versions of these like “thingy”, “thingamabob”, “thingamajig” and “whatsit”. You can also do the same for people’s names with phrases like “Whatshisname”, “that guy” and “you know the guy”.
7. Give provisional answers
One way to prompt yourself to speak before thinking too much is to always remember that you can change your mind later. Useful phrases when this might be the case include “Off the top of my head,…”, “The first thing that springs to mind is…”, “As far as I remember,…”, “I’ll check if this is really true but…” and “I’ve got the actual information elsewhere but…” These are useful sentence starters for filling silence and getting you speaking even when you aren’t likely to change your mind, but if you do you can add phrases like “Wait a minute” and “Come to think of it”.
8. Really prioritise fluency while speaking
It’s incredibly difficult to improve fluency and other things at the same time, so if you really want to improve how quickly and smoothly you speak, you have to put other things on the backburner. This particularly means not concentrating on accuracy, be that accurate grammar, perfect pronunciation, getting the level of politeness exactly right, or saying exactly what you mean to say. With the exception of the kinds of language that are mentioned as useful in this article like sentences starters and vague language, you will also need to (temporarily) forget about using more complex language and things you’ve just learnt and have been desperate to try out, instead trying to use language you already know well to explain more or less what you want to say.
9. Accept other weaknesses
This is another way of putting the point above. If you are going to speak more smoothly than usual, it will inevitably lead to grammar mistakes, more L1 interference in your pronunciation, less complex vocabulary, etc, so just accept that and work on those another time when they become your priorities.
10. Use the language you know to say what you can
… rather than trying to explain exactly the ideas in your head. At the most extreme level this can include agreeing when you really have the opposite opinion just because agreeing is easier or saying “It’s something like an English bungalow” when you know it isn’t that much like it at all (if a more accurate description doesn’t really matter).
01 February 2016
31 January 2016
Short love story

29 January 2016
Facts About Me
18 January 2016
After 5 years!
15 January 2016
Passion
10 January 2016
Dilwale is so awesome
Semalam tengok lagi actually, dua kali dilwale mwehehehe


























