Recently

Right now, I am in my relative house. It was about two hours from home. I was sitting on the floor with my laptop on the couch. Just finished reading one of my books. It took me nearly a year to finish.💦 Hahahahaha I was too busy and didn't have much time to read any book. The book was quite fantastic. I thought it would be boring because I don't understand much for the early half part.

I'm a bit bored so I could do anything I want. So, I choose to read book. Watching movies already being a boring thing. I watched a lot including the dramas.

Around two days ago, I watched Annabelle with my friends. Freak out dude!  😂👀 Fuh, we were so emotional and cringe. Fortunately, it was Tuesday and the cinema wasn't packed with peeps. So, that was our chance to be noisy a lil bit😋

Hahahaha, that's all because I was so bored right now. 😪

The changes

It seems like I'm getting older. Yeah I'm 19 this year. The last teen. I've been wondering about what have changes along those years. Some bad some good.

What I know about the difference was my confidence. I seriously have confidence just as having high self esteem. I don't know how it works out. It started from my azam while I was entering the college life. "I wanna change", "I want to be someone that people know and noticed" . I can't remember but, just like that. Maybe I've got to meet new friends and I think if I change nobody would know that I'm really outstanding. They will just thought that was the real of myself. 

Totally wrong 😂. I am not like that. I was lack of confidence. I was shaking. I think I was ugly and has a dark skin. Too short. Overthinking too badly that I simply can't say a word. There was once, in a big hall, full of students, I was shaking as soon as he wants to pick a random student to answer his question. He didn't choose yet but I was a freak out as he noticed that I was trembling there. Everyone looks at me. LOL💦

But, if now and so on after this, I am barely sure that I am steady to face people and crowd. Shaking and sweating is just normal. But, the face must full of chill. No need to feel people laughing at you, just be deaf towards negativity.👊

Practice your loudness. Honestly until now I am not so good at speaking in front of big crowd. My voice shaking! although I didn't want to. Well, that just how it is because you are not familiar to those situation and you need to beat it. Challenge yourself. I only think about that. And when you're done, you're gonna feel like you did the most people can't do yet. Believe me😎

See you again, excited for USM😁

Next step of study

Well hello guys, straight to the point. 3rd of August was one of my great day since I've got USM Kampus Induk! Session 2017. Thankful for the Almighty for giving me this. It was my first choice. I'm so happy because it was one of my dream though. 

So, right now I was settling my process for registration. The questions, health, card and fees. Due date just around the corner. So, nak taknak kena buat cepat cepat. And can't wait because it was a new surrounding for me since I've never been living out of town or Perak. Since I will live in P.Pinang I can hang out for a while and short vacay with my friends😆 hahaha berangan teruk. Padahal, kena belajar. 

Eh, sapa kata tak suka belajar? I was waiting to learn science computer. I know it's kind of hard or damnn hard from some blogs. Yep, my brother even said it. But, never mind this is my choice. Let me face the struggles. 

About my ambition being those kind of health care, "dah terkubur kot". I totally give up on science subjects. I just can't study hard anymore. I know myself than others do. 

What I know about science computer are, you have to look at the computer most of the time. Thinking and pressure your brain to make a system. I don't mind because laptop or this thing are like my hobby. Well, I'm not that kind of easily give up handling my computer. So, why not I just carry on with this course. Pray for me too. Who knows I might flip my own laptop either than table?😅

That's all I want to explain on my next study which is degree zasss. Degree kot weh😞😫