I don't know how to describe this. Am I falling for someone again? I was happy when someone treated me so nice. I was a fool to like someone that got so many admirers. Is it okay that I like him when we are just friends, we talk like friends, we smile like friends.
I don't like myself when I fall deeper day by day. It's too hard for me. I shouldn't make any steps before. I shouldn't see him at first. I shouldn't fall in love with him at first sight. I lost.
How am I going to hide my feelings, when I will see him always after this. I'm sorry heart, I burden you a lot. You need to be strong and pretend a lot. You need to stop beating fast as you see him. Let's do this.